Started ADHD treatment about 2 months ago with a non-stimulant medication for treatment. It’s been a lot easier regulating emotion but was still having a hard time with a lot of the exec function symptoms. I was ready to switch up my treatment until…

I had a hard realization that the emotional regulation was going so well that it also took a lot of the emotions I relied on for my origin of action. I relied a lot on just waiting for my body to be screaming until I am able to do anything 😭.

I found myself in a relatively unfamiliar place, it feels like I don’t really know what are the “signals” that I have to use to know what I have to do. I found myself even more paralyzed sometimes just because I just feel like no one is giving me instructions internally.

This mind you did NOT work before, which is why i feel so silly to even just say “okay I’ll just think or tell myself to do the thing and I do the thing? But to my surprise the past two weeks I somehow was able to “do things” that I tell myself to do.

The symptoms are definitely still there but I am finding myself in a place where i feel like I hit the reset button and I kind of have to relearn a lot of things. Relearning origins of actions, new signals, new feelings, new routines.